update

Well I had some goals a while back. They really didn't go too well. Life happens I guess. My goals were to cut meat from my diet and to be able to run for 30 min and also, to have finances in order. I would have to re-read to remember my specific money goal.

I started by cutting beef and pork from my diet, and it went well except that I would forget sometimes and also, I felt like such a pain telling people who were feeding me that I don't eat what they cook. It was hard and I did end up quitting. I eat everything now. I got pregnant and thought maybe it wasn't a great time for change. I now wonder if it was still a good thing, cuz I have been eating horribly since then!

I still have an ultimate goal of being vegan or something closer to it eventually, but how will I deal with telling people who cook for me, etc. I guess that is a bridge I will cross when I come to it!

My running goal did not work out because of my pregnancy... I can walk but running probably isn't in my near future. I still hope to accomplish that goal at some point!

Financially, things are going a lot better than they were, we are paying down debt.. we have a clear budget, but there is work to be done. I really want to figure out how to pay the debt down faster! I also have a hard time with the fact that our income changes month to month, year to year... so it is really hard to know what we can safely spend and put on our debt each month! Sometimes our income could be seriously low and we need money put away to make up for that. I really wonder what Gail Vaz-Oxlade would have us do with our financial situation. I recently ordered her book, Debt free forever, and I am really hoping she will get down to detail on how we can figure out the best path to being debt free and financially free! I really like that she is Canadian, so there won't be a lot of US jargon that doesn't apply to me! I have a lot of financial books, but I don't think any of them are Canadian... so that is exciting to me, to know she is so close and understands Canada! I won't have to wonder if what they are talking about only applies in the US :)

So, on to more current goals, I really want to be a better self, wife and mother. I am finding all of this really challenging lately and I just desperately want things to run more smoothly and for the house to be more clean and organized.

Self- I really want to take better care of my body. I want to eat more healthy things and less unhealthy. I have practically been living off poutine since I got pregnant and feel so guilty about that! I also want to take better of my emotional/spiritual self. I have recently found myself depressed, anxious and angry. That is not the person I want to be, and I think it is a direct result of me not tending to my needs in these areas.

Wife- My man does so much for me and our family every single day. Rarely does he take a day off. In fact, I'm not sure he ever does, between work and responsibilities around the house... even when we go camping, he is still doing everything he can to make us all very comfortable! I love this about him. That being said, all he asks for in return is healthy and happy children and a reasonably clean house. I could really be doing better for him and in fact I would give myself a great big 'F' sometimes! This relates to the next part:

Mother- I have the goal of reaching Clint's expectations in this area, and hopefully exceeding them. I really want to do more school, crafts and other fun things with the kids, and I want to keep their environment clean, tidy, uncluttered and organized. I also really want to get better at discipline, since I have been really inconsistent lately.

Wish me luck!